At my monthly Afterlife Meetups I talk about how to recognize and respect your IGS—your Intuitive Guidance System—not necessarily how to connect with or speak with or hear from Spirit on the Other Side. I did not even know that I was a medium or that I was capable of being one until my husband died five years ago. Now I understand that the only thing missing from the equation was my own conscious awareness. In other words, I had no idea that my depression, my anxiety, my panic attacks, and my fear were all related to stuffing down who I really was—and that this included listening to my own gut as well as my ability to talk to the Other Side.
I was taught that I was hypersensitive and overemotional, that these were bad things and things that needed correction.
I felt I needed to fix everything and yet I knew I was incapable of fixing anything.
I felt that I was responsible for everything, and yet I was unable to take responsibility for anything.
I felt that everyone else must be to blame for what I saw as my world of ills and pain, yet I blamed no one but myself.
I was aware of everything, yet I was aware of nothing.
I was completely self-absorbed, yet I was completely absorbed by the energy of the collective consciousness.
I lived in judgment of myself and judgment of others because I could never see my way out of the black hole where I existed.
I was locked in the blackness as if it were made of steel.
In essence, I was a living, breathing mass of contradiction.
There is no reason to live like that once we know the truth of who we really are: Vacationing Angels. That is why I stand before you today: to offer another perspective, one I have been blessed to receive. That is my sole purpose. It is my soul’s purpose. It is why I forced myself to walk through the pain of losing a loved one and through the dark night of the soul until I could come out the other side and stand here. And if I can be present and speak words that resonate with even one person, for one second, for one moment, and help that one individual live in more joy and understanding, that is all I need to continue.
And to all of you who are brave enough to step out of the blackness of questioning, doubting, fear, trepidation, worry, or any other place of spiritual, emotional, mental, and/or physical deprivation…bravo.
While being a medium is awesome, compelling, real, immediate, and beautiful, and while it helps me and those I channel information for and through (Spirits in human form on this side and Spirit Beings beyond the Veil), my true objective to help others join me in living a happier life as a Vacationing Angel.